I have decided that it might be a wise idea to do a monthly check in with myself, just to make sure that I still have my head screwed on and to establish where I stand within my practice. This will be a good way of keeping track of my current interests and to set individual goals to work towards.
How am I doing generally?
Honestly? I'm not in the best place at the minute. I'm not at all the type to share my problems with the whole world but its important for me to recognise how my current struggles with my mental health are effecting me as a person and my work. Having low motivation, energy and little interest in things I enjoy, importantly illustration, I think is really showing in my work, especially 504, which is frustrating because I am so desperate to do well and actually enjoy this project alongside the others too.
BUT I am very aware of this, and know the steps I need to take to feel better, everything is under control and I'm getting the support I need so there is nothing to worry about :)
Who's work do I admire at the minute?
Following my recent visit to Thought Bubble I have become really interested in the work of Emily Rose Lambert (I bought her zine called Four Days in Budapest)
She graduated from Loughborough University in 2013 with a first class honours in Illustration, and is currently working on comics and narrative work, editorial/ book jackets and patterns. I really admire her versatility and hand crafted aesthetic she applies to her practice. It also gives me scope into things which I could potentially achieve after graduating!
What am I struggling with the most at the minute (work wise)?
I am having so many difficulties with 504! My work keeps going round and around in circles, and I have completely lost interest in the brief. I think not being used to having such a long deadline has really thrown me off key, as last year was more fast paced with quick idea and process generation. But I need to keep going because I can see so many good potential things that will come out of this brief, its just the process of finding what those are thats the trouble.
Due to my 504 problems, I am finding it difficult to get started on my Responsive projects due to struggling with time. This has reinforced the importance of keeping on top of work to not completely nose dive in every module. However I have established some briefs that I am interested in, which include the Penguin Random House Design Award, and the Royal Watercolour Society, and am looking forward to tackling those.
COP and PPP are dwindling on the back burner ever so slightly, but there are no near deadlines for them as of now so they aren't priority.
Plan of action
(between now and next month)
- Take it easy and don't overwork myself, have a rest over Christmas and don't put too much pressure on myself to complete work
- Keep chipping away at 504, an idea is sure to come!
- Try and work backwards from deadlines, then I will gain a better sense of when I need to do things in time so that I am not in a mad panic/rushing my work in time to complete it